radio_cures

radio_cures @ 2006-11-07T02:24:00

2006-11-07T06:24:09Z

testing.

well

2006-11-07T05:42:59Z

i feel like i had an exciting weekend,
when really
i only had an exciting sunday and monday.
i can't remember before yesterday anyway.

tonight i watched a zombie movie
in a bike shop in west philadelphia

today was just a reminder
of how much
i really
really
need to be there.

i'm not an artist, i'm an asshole without a job.

2006-09-27T08:35:28Z

everyone is asleep and i'm lonely. hello livejournal.

also, i've had whatever station on for hours [i can't fall asleep comfortably without the perpetual blue light of the television] and i think i've seen one of those girls gone wild commercials 15+ times. i'm not exaggerating. they've almost convinced me to order it. almost.

the main reason i'm up is because i decided to get with the times and put all of my music on my computer...totally not realizing that it's probably going to take me a week to do. downloading is so much easier than transferring(ripping? perhaps is the word) onto my computer but the actual copies are so pretty and precious to me. also, i would possibly feel like a jerk.

so livejournal, I haven't really written anything here in months! years, even!

LIFE, IN SHORT FRAGMENTS
[since i am far too disoriented to write coherent paragraphs]
sunday is the one year with the boy.
monday is probably cursive.
school is school, it's easy and boring.
i still have no direction. win!
also, i am unemployed and it's certainly the best decision i have ever made.
i am embracing irresponsibility forever!

radio_cures @ 2006-09-06T02:34:00

2006-09-06T06:38:30Z

I am such a weird stage in my life right now.

I feel like I'm becoming more like my[old]self everyday, I don't know if it's a good or bad thing.
It's like everything I felt secure about has totally shifted in my mind.
And it's back to the drawing board.

as uneasy as I am, I don't want things to settle.
the idea of constant scares me more than anything.

life is weird.

2006-09-03T15:05:33Z

I wish I updated more.
Classes start in like three days.

when did this stop becoming fun?

I still read all of yours, btw.

radio_cures @ 2006-08-28T08:19:00

2006-08-28T12:20:13Z

radio_cures @ 2006-08-12T00:34:00

2006-08-12T04:35:20Z

there are some days where i feel like nothing's gotten better at all.

radio_cures @ 2006-07-08T21:06:00

2006-07-09T01:06:53Z

i am really unhappy with a lot of things.
i dont know why i even bother sometimes.

radio_cures @ 2006-06-20T08:28:00

2006-06-20T12:28:41Z

i think i may just be going crazy

radio_cures @ 2006-03-08T12:48:00

2006-03-08T17:48:44Z

with your feet in the air and your head on the ground, try this trick and spin it. your head will collapse if there's nothing in it; and you'll ask yourself-where is my mind?

radio_cures @ 2006-01-02T13:10:00

2006-01-02T18:20:18Z

( )Rocky Horror Picture
Show
(1) Grease
(2) Pirates of the Caribbean
( ) Bondock Saints
( ) The Mexican
(3) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
( ) Neverending
Story
( ) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane
( ) The Princess Bride
(4) Young Frankenstien
(5) Anchorman: The Legend of Ron Burgundy
(6) Napoleon Dynamite
(7) Saw
( ) White Noise
(8) White Oleander
( ) Anger Management
( ) 50 First Dates
( ) Jason X
( ) Scream
( ) Scream 2
( ) Scream 3
(9) Scary Movie
(10) Scary Movie 2
( ) Scary Movie 3
(11) American Pie
(12) American pie 2
(13) American Wedding
( ) Harry Potter
( ) Harry Potter 2
( ) Harry Potter 3
( ) Harry Potter 4
( ) Resident Evil I
( ) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(14) The Village
(15) Donnie Darko
(16) Lilo & Stitch
(17) Finding Nemo
( ) Finding Neverland
( ) Ghost
(18) Signs
( ) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
(19) Butterfly Effect
( ) Thirteen Going on 30
( )I, Robot
(20) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
( ) Universal Soldier
( ) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came Polly
( ) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
( )never Been Kissed
(21) Meet The Parents
(22) Meet the Fockers
( ) Eight Crazy Nights
( ) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
( )The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
( ) Dumb & Dumber
( ) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
( ) Halloween
(23) The Ring
( ) The Ring 2
(24) Harold And Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(25) Chicago
( ) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
( ) Hellboy
( ) Secret Window
(26) I Am Sam
( ) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Day After Tomorrow
( ) Child's Play
( ) Bride of Chucky
(27) 10 things i hate about u
( ) Just Married
( ) Gothika
( ) Nightmare on Elm Street
(28) Sixteen Candles
( ) Coach Carter
( ) Bad Boys
( ) Bad Boys 2
( ) Joy Ride
( ) Seven
(29) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
(30) Identity
( ) Lone Star
( ) Bedazzled
( ) Predator I
( ) Predator II
(31) Independence Day
( ) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
( ) Darkness Falls
( ) Christine
(32) ET
( ) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
( ) Best Bet
( ) how to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(33) Sideways
( ) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
( ) Ever After
(34) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
( ) X-Men
( ) X-2
( ) Jeepers Creepers
( ) Jeepers Creepers 2
(35) Catch Me If You Can
( ) The Others
(36) Freaky Friday Original
(37) Freaky Friday Remake
( ) Reign of Fire
(38) Cruel Intentions
( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Swimfan
( ) Oracle
(39) Old School
( ) Ray
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
( ) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
( ) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman
( ) Hitch
( ) The Fifth Element
(40)Star Wars Episode I: The Phantom Menace
( ) Star Wars Episode II: Attack of
The Clones
( ) Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of The Sith
(41) Star WarsEpisode IV: A New Hope
(42) Star Wars Episode V: The Empire Strikes Back
(43) Star Wars Episode VI: Return of The Jedi
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Air Force 1
( ) For Richer or Poorer
(44) Trainspotting
( ) People Under the Stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
( ) Sound of Music
(45) Parent Trap 1
(46)Parent Trap 2
( ) The Terminator
( ) The terminator 2
( ) Terminator 3
(47) Empire Records
(48) SLC Punk
( ) Meet Joe Black
(49) Nightmare Before Christmas
(50) The Silence of the Lambs
( ) Sleepy Hollow
( ) The Godfather
( ) The Godfather 2
( ) The Godfather 3
( ) Goodfellas
( ) Pulp Fiction
( ) Jackie Brown
(51) Kill Bill
(52) Kill Bill 2
(53) Reservoir Dogs
( ) Scarface
( ) Full Metal Jacket
( ) Taxi Driver
( )Master and Commander : The Far Side Of the
World
(54) Willy Wonka And The Chocolate Factory
(55) Charlie And The Chocolate Factory
( ) Crash
(56)The Breakfast Club
(57) Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
( ) The Good Girl
( ) Dawn of the Dead

i hate movies.

everything is pretty wonderful.
actually...sam is pretty wonderful.
he keeps me happy.
thing at home are not so great.
i don't really care, though.
and that's that.

radio_cures @ 2005-12-05T23:41:00

2005-12-06T04:41:54Z

oh goddamnit.

radio_cures @ 2005-11-28T01:46:00

2005-11-28T06:59:16Z

life is nice.
I'm happy.
it's the truth.

tagged by hardliquor.

List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your Livejournal along with your seven songs. Then tag seven other people to see what they're listening to.

01. the cure - why can't i be you?
02. beck - rental car
03. radiohead - electioneering
04. the smiths - ask
05. minus the bear - the fix
06. the new pornographers - use it
07. beck - que' onda guero (I am all about this cd)

I tag robotlyublyu,ohyousayso,electric_skies,shes_automatic,alialioxenfree,letsjustbreathe,smurfettte.

for once, a thanksgiving that wasn't awful!

2005-11-25T05:00:11Z

+my mom making me vegetarian food that was amazingggg
+visiting richie and delivering the book
+visiting my sammy at his house [& such]
+new video games
+black friday adventures tomorrow!

life is nice.

i will own this soon.

2005-11-24T20:30:35Z

hm?

2005-11-19T07:43:42Z

i annoy myself.
i dont like my entries.
i like hugs.
my tummy hurts.
i like security.
but i dont like dependency.
i havent done anything shitty in a while.
i don't want to sleep by myself.
i like honesty.
i want to feel needed.
does that makes sense?

radio_cures @ 2005-10-18T01:28:00

2005-10-18T05:30:25Z

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. so shitty.

radio_cures @ 2005-10-17T01:07:00

2005-10-17T05:08:35Z

um, I feel sort of sick right now.

I finished a long way down today. quality.

hmm.

radio_cures @ 2005-10-03T01:59:00

2005-10-03T06:00:20Z

I feel uncertain and filled with doubt on everything. but I'm not going to over analyze anymore because it only makes me miserable. right now, i feel incredible. [most] things are good.

radio_cures @ 2005-09-29T00:42:00

2005-09-29T04:42:20Z

AHHHH.

hmm..

2005-09-21T23:37:11Z

as annoyed as I may get with EVERYONE, my friends really are wonderful.

this past week has entailed endless silliness...from baking parties to princeton!!! to philly to painting to finding money!! and quitting my job and getting a new job interview and never going to school and hanging out with someone I haven't seen in a really long time, and being very disappointed with the aftermath. outside of that last matter, and a few little things here and there, I'm content.

and this weekend will most likely be absolute insanity. I can't wait.

radio_cures @ 2005-09-16T01:05:00

2005-09-16T05:06:08Z

OH YEAH, PS: I AM GOING INSANE!

radio_cures @ 2005-09-11T01:45:00

2005-09-11T06:00:18Z

diners, rt.70, beaches, cigarettes, holding hands, panic, new loves, old loves, lost loves, retail therapy, hugs, you, me, the garden state parkway, motion city soundtrack, coffee, sleeping aids, seldomly eating, butterflies, being neurotic, island heights, ben folds five, magic, long conversations, jack johnson, whirlwinds, uncertainty, protection (or lack thereof), shooting stars, abandonment, jimmy eat world , being miserable together ["what we're best at"], ignored phone calls, kisses, tears, smiles, say anything, sea bright, the stone pony, being a complete fucking mess...

and finally feeling almost-okay.

radio_cures @ 2005-09-09T01:07:00

2005-09-09T05:07:29Z

I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax. I need to relax.

I would love some tylenol PM right now.

2005-09-08T06:00:00Z

I saw friends (!!!) tonight and it made me feel awkward and strange but I think it's what I need. I finally ate food but then I came home and had to run in the house because I had to vomit, it was sort of awful.

EVERYTHING IS A MESS.

and that, for once, does not just mean with you.

I need something secure, I need some sort of stability, I just don't know how to find it. I have so much shit racing through my mind all the time and I get these sort of panic attacks where I feel like I have to get up and run somewhere (although I'm not, and never will be, a runner) to try and calm myself down. They pass after a few minutes, but it's honestly the worst thing ever.

when is everything going to settle?